Tuesday, March 3, 2009

Umeed....

Yuhi baithe baithe najane kitna arsa beet gaya
sannate ke goonj me dubkar apna hi awaaz ghum gaya

itna tha ujala fir bhi andhiyara use daba gaya
Shyam ki dastak ayi aur aaj ka bhi din dhal gaya

ek masum khwahish leke tha nikal pada
raste pe thak gaya, woh bhi aage na badha

khwab sabhi dekhte hai par bhool gaya tha disha
sirf ek lehar ki chunnauti se sara sapna simat gaya

ussi lehar par kudne ka ek armaan mann me jhunjhta raha
takrake chur honewale pathar se alag astitva banane ka chaha

sunhari dhoop me bhi dhundne laga badalon ki chaav
jhuki aankhon me aa gaya ab umeedo ka bhaav

ruka nahi thama nahi, jaana sirf sapno me hai jaan
leharo se ladne laga dene sapno ko anjaam

Monday, March 2, 2009

The twenty-five somethings

I read a forward about the “quarter life crisis” which inspired me to write about this stage. Whether I connected to it. Well I wont state that bit…..

For twenty-five somethings time does exist in two different dimensions depending on ones state of mind. Twenty-five’s something could be the most exciting part of your life and at the same time it could be the most anxious part of your life. A life partner, your standing vis a vis your friends, your career, your dreams everything gets decided or finalized or changes its path drastically for the good or bad during this interesting period.

At times you would be quite content on being an observer of the unfolding drama of life while at times you would think, this is the time for me to act, now or never! You would be wondering whether its actually the right time for you to get married or you are just not ready for it. Marriage?? For some shaking hands with a new person of the opposite sex is still a sexual experience at 25! The enthusiasts still hope for meeting someone in trains, buses, classes, treks, friend’s parties, etc. You start considering people you have known all along but never given much thought to earlier. The advantage being that at least you know the person. Those in relationships start thinking about how the same would progress till and after marriage. The future plans start falling in place. Those few have-beens and out of a relationship start dreading another and prefer to take their own sweet time when presented with photographs and suitable Resumes. Not trusting things becomes a norm. Time seems to be moving on crutches.

The job that was the absolute dream just a couple of years back seems the most dull thing for the moment. The adventurous are still busy planning ventures, failures which were never really felt before start taking huge tolls. Uncertainty and Living on the edge seems a part and parcel of life, especially in recession times like these. The ones who have always been rankers in college, well settled in their jobs start feeling that time investment to find a life partner during the study times would have made so much more sense.

What exactly would success be?? Another question which keeps lingering on and on. Is this what I actually want to do with my life?? What if I get extremely successful in my professional life but not find the right partner? What if I am unable to achieve my dream?? Let me just settle down now?? For the first time, even the most confident varieties worry about their future.

One phone and you are back in your mood…one mail from your Boss and you feel like quitting….you call your friends and discuss the same bullshit for hours again and again…..you hear a news and you suddenly feel insecure….. Life is a confusing question paper...Anticipation goes on forever….